~ Beginnings 2017 ~

- Late Christmas Outinggg -

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with my close kingdom friends ! 💕

One of my blessings in 2016 is to know my good friend Steph heh <3

Shes so precious and such a wonderful friend. I love the entire CG too! Will take more photos the next time hahaha !!

Christmas NCC church service with beloved mum & uncle ! Always love christmas season and always looking forward to a great sunday with the church fam! :)) so much love and joy . 

"God's promises are like the stars the darker the night the BRIGHTER they shine"💖

How I feel during the final projects and final exams in year 2 sem 2 HAHAHAHA.

It was also a battle between choosing my bed and table especially during the midnight hours of doing codings and facing the computer for hours straight. But all is worth it, since i felt i do pretty okay, yeap yeap all for the future. XD

4 years of friendship and counting <3

One of my favourite person to talk to , since she is genuine and kind-hearted. 

4 years never changing. love you babe!! distance and hecticness never changes our closeness.

Recently went to watch a movie and the next time i will definitely bring you for skating ;)) HAHAHAH no harm trying!

One of my closer friend at church, a friend who cares and offers good advices from time to time. :)

Skating session with her on the second week of holidays!!! :) am proud of her for conquering year 3 of poly!! :)  A strong and driven warrior in Christ <3

Being silly and annoying one another is what we do when we meet :) hhahahahah

finally meeting them despite our busy schedules. Glad school exams are over and time for the next battles in year 3! but first atrip overseas to wonderful places i dreamt of going to! ;) updates on blog soon in April !!!

            A new rosegold ring bought. A simple word engraved on it, "Beloved". It reminds me, "Beloved child, do not be worried or dissappointed, have an expectation of good and not judgment or condemnation, you are forever loved no matter. I will always be there to pick you up and walk with you. You are never alone. " It shall be with me wherever i go. heh <3

reminders and growth as a 18 year old (2016)

Being an 18-year old was a pretty hectic year filled with many joys, growth, some dissappointments, realisations, more self-awareness and people-awareness. To me, the biggest learning points was learning to walk away from people who are of no good to me, accepting changes faster and the importance of mental health. As a grew older, I realise the importance of how to get through battles without the reliance on my emotions. To live without reasoning and be lead by the spirit. Being vulnerable lives a strong individual inside of oneself, and i love and respect people with great integrity and self-respect. It is a year when i really hear myself internally and really take action, "It is time to grow up, time to be very self-independent and put my priorities right all the time."

My main joys in life are my loved ones in my life like God, my family, friends and people whom i choose to surround with. I realise that keeping oneself in the best state is every important, because our loved ones are our strength, they keep us going. As humans with much empathy will all understand how important it is. We should be considering the fact that they want us well, we need to keep on keeping on and stay positive no matter how hard the situation might be. They are our source of support and advisers. I learnt to keep strong, to be positive because i hate to keep people worrying. Yes, it is easier said than done, some of you may be thinking ;) but when you try thinking of your loved ones more often, it does help to keep you going. If one of your main joys are things that are of material and temporal, you are definitely on the wrong track. It can only steal your joy, trust me.

My daily lifestyle was a repitition most of the time, with some changes from time to time. While i would read through my favourite books in the train on the way to school, I love to think about things i would like to achieve sometimes. But I have changed to "how should i work smart, what can i do to better my performance and maximise my time." Last time i was a dreamer, but now i believe in being grounded and realistic. I believe in actions, and do not do small talks and go around telling people like how many people do it these days. I had many quiet moments to myself, and try to calm my mind of things and fill myself with positivity before the day starts. To me true success in life means, firstly, keeping oneself whole and rested in the process of achieving. Secondly, not neglecting your family. Thirdly, enjoying even the simple pleasures of life with a content heart. Lastly, is to be street smart, having right focus and consistency.

As I grew older, i also realise the extreme importance of being flexible and teachable. I personally think that as teenagers, yes we have our own mindsets and all, but it is always good to keep our minds open. Most of the time, having the knowledge only is not enough. Applying it in life will then be of good use. With the pride of thinking oneself is always right, other people is always wrong is the greatest obstruction to one's personal growth. He or she will never learn even how knowlegeable they are. They think that hell is given to them, but they created it themselves. If one person were to continue to be non-driven or making rash decisions , they think " Oh, why am i going through all this shit? why do i deserve this?" Instead of accepting and seeing their problem, they blame it on their genes for their bad results or blame it on others for their mistakes.

One of the important things i do is to explore and do things i havent got the chance to do yet. This would tick of the list which has been in my mind xD  As a young person, it is good to learn as much about yourself before going into the adult world. With that we are able to better cope and not stay stagnant with what we have. I will be doing some stuff which i had in mind during this holiday, and also will update the blog once i am done with the things. ;)

Thanks for reading and I hope you guys actually love it and gain something through it :) xo



                                                    ups and downs but still conquering in life! ;)

"Never Evers s"

Never go back to the past and replay scenes in your head over and over again.

Never ever go back to the old self that once ruined your soul. 

Never ever believe in those lies people told you,  NEVER.

Never bring yourself as low as those people who do bad to you.

Never let your genetics determine who you are.

Never become someone whom you thought you will never be.

Never love others without loving yourself.

Never listen to your negative depressing thoughts in your head, REJECT them.

Never let the world engulf you into flames and get you internally burnt to death.

Never let anyone's judgement be the power over your future.

Never ever give up even if you are feeling super overwhelmed.

Never let your emotions be the head of your decisions or judgments.

Never do something you hate forever.

Never choose a rich life over happiness.

Never let yourself be a rebound of anyone.

Never be with someone who angers you all the time.

Never be blinded because of love.

Never think that death is the only option.

Never ignore the signs life gives you.

Never lower your standards just because you are lonely.

Never be so silly that you forgot how to love yourself.

Never hold grudges as it only ruins yourself.

Never waste your time on quarrelling with immature people.

Never become a person who is full of lies, nonsense and lastly all the shits in the world which is endless.

Imperfection

Imperfection is normal, imperfection is within each and everyone of us. We are all mostly striving hard for every day life, hoping to achieve good things or even the best. It can be really tiring at times. Especially, the perfectionism in me can sometimes cause me to be really shag or dissappointed at myself. Self-expectations are good, but too many expectations can only stress oneself and may reep bad fruits in your life. I just felt that i want to share this with you guys who are feeling weary or tired of striving.

Number 1 - You are NOT ALONE.

 Everyone has their own expectations, worries, fears and doubts. Sometimes, as humans we do forget that the competition is not among us and others, but is the fight within us that constantly battles for our lives. Because of the self-condemnation, self-doubt and enviness, we can be blinded by our true purpose for how we started this battle. For example, if you are aiming to be top in the level , but people are overtaking you and want to compete with you, you may feel the stress and dissatifaction. But trust me, it is not worth a second of your time in competiting strongly against anyone. Personally, i am a competitive individual, who aims very high once i set a goal. I realised many things ranging from studies to reputation, as long as you focused on your own journey and ONLY your own journey without looking at others, you can truly spend the wise amount of time on your goals as it can rob you from the joy during the process.

Number 2- Know yourself well and take PROPER action.

Know your body, mind and health as well as you know about your favourite idols or person.

You need to ensure that you are doing things every day life without neglecting too much of your mental and physical health. There are many cases where people are too overwhelmed by either workload at work or personal issues, they commit suicide or sink into depression. You need to know your limits, do your best to save yourself from the palms of the devil. Personally i think emphasis on personal awareness is EXTREMELY important. Without taking care of your own inner issues,usually can be a great obstruction to your goals and happiness. Therefore, understanding yourself is the primary key to succeeding in life.

Number 3- importance of TRULY accepting imperfections exists in our life like its no big deal.

It is important you tell yourself from time to time, " it is okay, to fail this time.", "It is okay not to be the best" , "It is okay if I am different from others" , "It is okay to forgive myself". Only when you accept the outcome, only then you can really focus on your future goals and forget the pasts. Just like a very young child, by nature they believe in the good in life, they have a simple and forgiving mindset towards themselves. After they burst into tears out of sadness or anger, they can be happy and alright the very next moment. We need to learn to contain a child-like faith, a faith that brings in much more happiness and hope in life.

Number 4- Keep CALM and let go of whatever that is hindering your growth.
Failures and setbacks might make one doubt their skills and ability, or their worth. But, not to forget that you cannot control the people or environment that you are in. But, YOU CAN control your mind, emotions and thoughts as long as you allow to train yourself to take PROPER control. nobody can tell you WHO you are as a person or WHAT is within you. Let me share with you a simple thought that helps me think positively, " Over time, do those negative, temporary situations matter?" What i usually do is to let everything that is unbeneficial to not steal my joy. Nowadays, as each new trial comes ahead,  the time i dwell on negative thoughts or worries keeps on decreasing. It is important to cultivate a habit of positive lifestyle.

I know it can be hard at times to get through trials, but as you feed yourself with positivity, love and joy, many things in you life can fall into place! It just takes time and effort to grow yourself as a person and fill yourself up again! Remember that things can get tougher, but YOU my friend, can GET STRONGER! I believe in all of you readers. You are much more capable and stronger than you ever know.

Hope you guys find this helpful! Lots of love! xo

Love in Christ

Your love changes me inside out, you love gives me peace and hope.

You shower me with endless grace, a love that cannot ever be compared.

You loved us so much that you sacrificed your only Son, and give us chances to rest in your loving embrace.

You calm my fears, bring me out of the darkness and took me out of bondages.

How loved I am, that I am righteous not by self obedience, but by Jesus' Obendience.

You gave me the best gift, which is to rest and cast all my cares upon you, giving me overflowing favour and grace.

You provides lasting freedom from my sins, and received undeserving love by knowing that i am righteousness of God in Christ.

You helped me out from the battle of my mind, putting all condemning thoughts out of my head.

You washed me clean and I am cleansed forever.

You constantly bless with me people, opportunities and save me from bad circumstances.

You made me shine like never before, and replace bitterness with gloriousness and grace.

You are the lover of my soul, the hiding place whenever I am feeling down.

I am eternally transformed by your grace, always looking towards You and not my circumstances nor people.

Nothing is like the love i experienced in Christ, it is the best thing that ever happened to me.

Senerity

Senerity within a person can be acquired when...

You learn how to deal stress and anxiety through experiences that taught you.

You are able to sleep in peace knowing you have a clear conscience.

You forgive others and forgive yourself.

Not swallowing the poison which you drank in it your own will.

You are patient and taking actions on the things you want to achieve.

You are more aware of yourself and others' actions.

You know it is okay to rest and give yourself a short break from things in life.

You take action more than you speak.

You know what are your top priorities.

You be yourself, and love yourself and others.

You do not compete with others.

You focus on peace and harmony, not focus on your pride.

You are open-minded and understanding towards different people.

You know you have done your best and have no regrets.

You learn from each lessons that life taught you, so you will not repeat the cycle.

You learn to feed on your wisdom and not pride.

You stay away from people who are negative and drains you out.

You choose your close friends wisely.

You do not overthink, use your mind instead of your heart thus you will be able to see thing more logically.

You learn to reflect upon your actions and change your bad habits and improve own flaws.

You do not allow excuses to take charge of the important things in life.

You are not bitter and easily angered.

You are confident in yourself.

You are wise enough to let go of the pasts.

You focus on the present and things that matter.

You do not gossip and spread rumours.

You are able to control your mind and train yourself to think positively.

You really know your worth, and stop pleasing others.

You pray and have faith that things will work out.

You do not let emotions overtake your intellectual.

You learn how to treat others with respect.

You are not impulsive and trigger your loved ones to be angered.

You know how to be a person and treat people with humility.

You do not wish others bad.

You focus on being a rightful person instead of criticizing others.

You look yourself in the mirror before judging others.

You learn how to give yourself and others time to grow and figure out.

You know your stand and know how to be assertive.

You know that you are precious, you are loved.

"You are the living vine"

"You are the living vine, you are my strength.

You supply me with never ending goodness, you shaped and grow me.

You never gave up on me, and fight for my "battles" when im "dry".

You cleanse me deep, you bring life into me.

You are the vine that flows in me, you provide me with consistent care.

You lift me up, you make me grow stronger each time.

You allow me to bear fruits, you make it effortless for me.

You are the nutrients to my life, the key to my life.

You showed me my purpose, you lead me the way.

You give me hope,  and i put my entire trust in you.

You give me health, you allow me to mature and bear good fruits.

You are intertwined with me, your unconditional ways are eternal.

You are love, you are the lover of my soul.

Your name is Jesus. "