Day out chilling at an awesome cafe- 21.09.16

Don't you just have days where you will just be content with life just by sitting down at a great cafe with a cozy environment and vibes you love, sipping a caramel macchiato, reading a story book and pondering about many things? It could be a really awesome past memory, dreaming about the things you would like to have, or doing some reflections/planning for your life. Well, I am the type of cafe person to do all that. Sometimes, i love time alone at a cafe, just so that you have personal space and time to relax and replenish you energy from work, or perhaps maybe also read some amazing books/articles online which inspire you and motivates you in life. You can just be in your own world of thoughts, away from the hustle and bustle, and have lots of peace and comfort appreciating the time you have to wind down yourself. I love personal time, its just making time for yourself and seriously think about life , at the same time, doing some self-improvement. 

 Yesterday, I finally had a great catch up session with one of my best friend(aka soulmate) , amidst her very busy schedule. We went to an awesome cafe called D'good cafe and I really loved the environment as it had a really cozy feeling, and pretty decorations hanging around the place. What i really love about the cafe is that it is a christian cafe with nice soothing worship songs, a seemingly quiet environment(as compared to some other cafes) and alternative places to chill in the cafe. To be honest, it is a really suitable place for people who loves peace and quietness. As you can see from the first solo picture of me, there is even a really pretty swing with pillows on it. In front there is also actually a wide full transparent glass for you to look outside and admire the skies and some greenery. It was indeed a great choice of place for cafe lovers to chill.

Anyways, I just love having friends around me who really sincerely wishes me well,connects with me well and can just talk to me about anything in the world. A friend whom i can trust and genuinely treats me, loving and accepting the way i am and genuinely loves is hard to find. Especially finding a friend who gets me and is similar in many sense. Enjoy heart to heart talks and chilling at cafes with this babe, am really grateful for true friends God put into my life. Just really makes my day woohoo
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11.09.16-Recent thoughts & attending HOGC service

Heyy guys! This is going be my very first blog post and I am very excited to share my awesome memories and experience:) Hope you guys love reading it! So I am going to write on the amazing grace which brought me back to enlightenment with the power of the words of Jesus!

 11 september was an emotional day at church for me. During the past recent weeks before holidays started, i had been really worn out by projects at school. I did not realise the time spent with God was getting lesser and lesser, to the point i felt like i was on my own, having my own self-righteousness while dealing with daily activities. At some point this year, i also had been dragged into a spiral of thoughts and was also extremely drained by certain issues that also pulled me away from God, which thus brought my growth with God spiritually to a halt. It was relating to a toxic relation that i had went through. I was just hopeless and really distracted. I could not even focus on my goals and I was close to being spiritually dead. Just when I was at my breaking point God spoke to me.(YASS PTL ikr) I saw a post that really answered to my issue and at that very moment, i thought " yes definitely it must be Jesus!" It was a really long post, from a christian page. I then prayed to God for more answers. On the very day, my mum also talked to me. Her words really gave a double confirmation to my decision. I was somewhat back to my usual self some time after, as i have gotten out of that dark hole that leads to no where. God speaks to us through people many a times, we just have to notice that God does things in ways that make sense and when the least we know. I was really really thankful for God. In my heart i was like " omg God i know you are always there hearing me!" (HAHAHAH) God does really speak to us in his special ways! haha ohhh yeah anywaysss, back to my main point!

I was actually invited by my beloved friend to her church named Heart Of God church (HOGC). She said there was a rare version of a lengendary video in the service which is going to bless me greatly. The title of the sharing is "Journey of A Dream". Just by looking at the title, like woww who is gonna miss that! i can't miss that amazing sermon! hahaha.

As i went, indeed it was a really awesome and super anointed sermon! I really needed it :) It was about the process you would have to go through to reach your dreams. The first part to the journey of a dream is the BIRTH of a dream. For every birth of a dream, a dream you want to fufill, it means that you will definitely go through a DELAY in the process. It may be some factors such as the lack of ideas, manpower or resources etc. It may also be other struggles or difficulties in life, that you have to deal with hence the delaying of the process.

Besides the delaying, depending on how things turned out to be, you will reach to a certain stage where all motivation, hope and strength are just gone. Hence, you come to the stage on the DEATH of the dream. You feel powerless over your situation. It seems like nothing could help to improve the situation. Thoughts in your head start to appear "Im just overconfident", " I am useless" , " I want to give up right now" , " I had enough" , "I am just not enough, i am nothing!" . When you feel like everything is over, it is NOT, when you believe in God. Pastor preached on this chapter Genesis 37 in the bible where Joseph was hated by his eleven brothers due to the their father's favourtism towards him.

Genesis 37
6 He said to them, “Listen to this dream I had: 7 We were binding sheaves of grain out in the field when suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright, while your sheaves gathered around mine and bowed down to it.”

8 His brothers said to him, “Do you intend to reign over us? Will you actually rule us?” And they hated him all the more because of his dream and what he had said."

19 “Here comes that dreamer!” they said to each other. 20 “Come now, let’s kill him and throw him into one of these cisterns and say that a ferocious animal devoured him. Then we’ll see what comes of his dreams.”

Joseph had dreams as a teen one of which was believing that one day his entire family would bow down to him.(The boyish dreams of a young Joseph) However, he is a person full of integrity with a heart to serve, and does things that pleases Jacob, his father and also God, the heavenly father.
His brothers hatred towards him created some trouble, delaying his growth in the process as they actually despised him and initially put him into the well to leave him there starving to death. But they
changed their mind and made him into a slave, selling him to a band of traders. He was then also accused to be a rapist and was sent to prison for many years. He was not only a slave, but also a prisoner. This made his future seemed so bleak. It was the DEATH of his dreams.

So here comes the amazing miracle for Joseph...[RESSURRECTION of a dream]

However, our almighty God of course, blessed him with a good outcome. There was a famine, but he managed to save his entire family because of his position. He was made second in command over all Eygpt. Isnt it so awesome? Indeed a blessing in disguise. Without God, he wouldnt have had made it so far after being in such a hopeless state becuase of his jealousy and ill-character brothers. This comes to show that God will surely bless you abundantly if you have a good heart, kind and pure, even though your dreams may be alittle far off.

"So Joseph found favor in his sight, and served him. Then he made him overseer of his house, and all that he had he put under his authority. So it was, from the time that he had made him overseer of his house and all that he had, that the LORD blessed the Egyptian's house for Joseph's sake; and the blessing of the LORD was on all that he had in the house and in the field." (Gen. 39:4-5) 

Pastor from HOGC also did share about how he and the other pastor had a dream to build up a church and the entire process from the beginning of when they had from the starting (BIRTH) of this dream to the ressurrection of the dream. The video is just so so touching and amazing. They started off with a small group of children ,youths and adults in their groups respectively. They managed to slowly build the church and after a few years, it grew to about 100 over people at the main service itself. Subsequently, it kept on increasing too. However, one day after service, an accident occurred to two of the kids from church after service while they were on the way home. They unfortunately passed away and one of them even passed away in the arms of one of the pastor.( yess.. it was really sad)  Both pastors had to hold funerals for two of the kids and counsel families from both sides.(IKR) It was a very tough period for them. Parents then came to them saying, "How can i trust this God when I cannot be secure with this church anymore?" Then people start leaving and stopped believing. But why? why must it be at that very moment near the church after service? Sometimes.. I do wonder too, why certain things happened the way it did. 
But the bible says..

Proverbs 3:5

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;

They did not give up on hope!!! They could have just given up on the church and followed the paths of the unbelievers. With such a tough period like this, they managed to pull through and with God's grace, little did they know, the church slowly grew to a few hundreds, a thousand plus, and thus currently now over 3000 people are attending the church service! WOW really WOW.  Its just God's blessings that lead to the growth and continuation of the church. Many churches are currently expanding too and well all glory to Jesus!!!

 The power in the house of God was so strong that i really felt a blast of emotions at one go that day. Because... I was reminded how i was pulled out of depressing thoughts and a series of anxiety attacks from the first time i attended church,(btw im from New Creation Church) when i was completely healed of the toxic emotions in my body after my pastor, Pastor Joseph Prince prayed during the sermon and I had never supported Christianity. But one thing's for sure, you'll never know until you experienced a It was the first time, i knew this was it. God felt so real. I do not have any believe in any God before that until I felt it myrself. My body felt amazing just after that two hour service. I was very neutral, but i just felt myself changed from that day onwards. I did not have thoughts of believing till i actually felt that difference in me. It was a kind of peace... the peace that can only be felt with Jesus. Now, i can't imagine a life without Him. ;'))

Thus this comes to a conclusion! No matter what we face, it is always the attitude. Your response will determine what holds for you even if the situation may seem hopeless. We have to learn to be strong, to get back our dreams and really hold on to them.This is the power of true FAITH. Of course, if you really want that dream, make sure to pray about it to understand what God has really instored for you. Hence i learnt this phrase from Pastor "It is about God's dream, it is about the dream of others." When you help others(of course not to neglect yourself too), God will turn around to make your dreams come alive!" God is indeed a fair God. Thus dream is our HOPE, dream is our LIFE. :)